...kids?

Imagine you're in a relationship where you love your partner and your partner loves you back, at the same time. That's already a miracle in itself this day and age, right? What with all the weirdos and bitches out there. Why then, I ask you, does life have to be so unfair to give that partner a different view from yours when it comes to having children? It's not like there's a possible compromise, like a half-kid, is there.
In my case? I don't want children now but will probably want to try the whole motherhood experience in a few years or so. After all, it is the one thing that our bodies are pretty much genetically programmed to do, apart from society rubbish and most, if not all, of my friends having their own families too. To me, it's just the natural way that people leave their parents to find their place in life, a partner, and create their own, new, family circles. How those circles are made up is up to every individual, obviously, but I'm seeing him and kids in mine.
And my partner sees me, but sans the kids.
So, based on Monica dumping Richard for not wanting kids and Carrie discussing the same thing with her Russian, I couldn't believe that I was going to have that same dilemma: why should I dump a guy I love for a kid I'm not even sure I want? And, in the long run, will he love me enough to make up for the fact that I was never a mother? I could always see him as my child if he chooses to behave like one, but that's beside the point. It's not even like I could argue with his reasons either (although they seem selfish to me and I think I'm allowed to get upset about that), because they're how he feels and, let's not forget, I agree with most of them at this point in time. The difference, I guess, is that I'm open to change and to grow up, take risks and face the responsibility of a son or a daughter, or at least consider the possibility. And my partner is not.
For now, I've decided to wait and stay with him, until I really hear that motherhood call and we can discuss this in earnest. The problem I have is what if he won't change his mind and I'll have wasted all my "good" years - I hate uncertainty, remember? Also, will I be able to really put this issue aside and not worry about it and let it affect other areas of the relationship, because that wouldn't be fair. And, also, will I be able to shut up my feelings of honesty, and how it feels like a lie staying in this relationship if I'm theoretically already kinda prepared to place one foot out the door.
The conclusions I've come to is that I need to see more grey and less black-and-white, and that I can happily stay in this relationship because any time spent with him will never be wasted, and last, but not least: any reproach I have for my partner is just a reflection of emptiness and boredom in my own life. If I think there's something missing I'm the only one who can fix that. Until that fix has the shape of a baby I will enjoy my life and live it as I see fit.
Now I only need a little more time to not be upset anymore, and I'd love your comments. Those who are mothers - is it really all it's cracked up to be? Those who aren't - are you by choice and happy? And the guys - is there really no give in you? Thanks! xx